My stay here at IIIT-H has taught me an important lesson – ‘everything works out fine (sooner or later)’ . On a scale of 1 to 10 to determine paranoia , I would have given myself an 8 earlier but now the number is pretty low. This should not worry me because that just means I am way cooler (well I have shifted drastically from exhibiting Monica’s charecteristics to those of Phoebe’s) but at some level it does bother me.
I am way too relaxed these days about my academics. The declining slope of my marks does not affect me. I just know I will make it and this ,after all the money that goes into my education. On a more serious note even friendships (well ya friendship is more serious than acads !!) and everything associated with it has stopped making sense. I don’t feel happy when I make a new ‘friend’ and don’t get upset when I lose a ‘friend’. The great thing is that I sleep in peace and do not have to pretend to be anyone but myself which is quite a luxury.
I love my life this way but I think that this stage of stagnant emotion will bore me. So I deliberately picked up a fight with someone I know just a couple of days back and had a great time actually. I wonder what all of this means but I know most people will term me a little insane after reading this post. My gut feeling is that there are lots of souls like me.
PS – I am so in love with Janko Tipsarevic. These Serbian tennis guys are simply awesome!