I borrowed this phrase from the Queen song Bohemian Rhapsody which I have been listening to with great intent for some strange reason. The song ends with these words and I think I relate to it which in turn is disturbing because the last I checked some people and some things do matter. Its just that I do not ‘naturally’ feel that way for anything or anyone except a select group.
Life is ,as it always was but I can’t help but think about what I am doing with it. The lack of relationships in my life is a reflection of me and I happen to think I am a nice person. Yet, I find it really tough to make bonds or strike friendships. Many people around me seem to be pretty prosperous and I am stuck with a few people , some of whom are great but not the people that matter to me.Come to think of it I am sure I don’t matter to them as well. It baffles me because inspite of being a total snob sometimes earlier I had good friends.I guess the fact that I don’t care sometimes and do not pretend to care during the remainder of the times has not gone down well with people. Then again I cannot indulge in small talk and be all sugar coated when I do not like a person. Not everybody has to like everybody and not liking someone does not make either you or that person bad. People make a huge issue out of these things. I remember I hated everyone who did not like me but now I know that I was immature and its normal to not like someone and its perfectly ok to like their friend. The issue is ‘someone’ and his friend complicate the situation and people like me are left stranded with another broken friendship.
I am surprised I wrote all of the things above but I guess deep down inside I felt it and I mean it when I write it. Just care about the things and people who matter to you. It could be your friend, your pet , your laptop or someone’s plight in Africa. As for the others they do not matter to me.
On a lighter note
-> Liverpool won against Inter Milan with Gerrard scoring another important goal. Things like this make my day !
-> Mid sems are over. Things like this just brighten my whole week!